Trying to grasp it all…

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Five days ago I shared with you an information about the positive changes that takes place after an awakening happens. And today I would like to share with you below material that explains the “work” it takes until full awakening occurs. 2

To share with you some favourite parts of mine from the material:


“If you are reading this article, chances are you are going through an awakening that is possibly rocking your world. Awakening involves the realization that we have been living within a perceived and programmed limitations as well as the decision to embody the higher or true self, the part of us that is infinite universal consciousness that has the ability to be, do or have anything we can dream of. It is a process of reidentifying who we are as we are slowly tapping into our true essence, the part of us that is beyond the body and mind.


Beginning of awakening journey always consists of resurfacing lifetimes of worth repressed emotions, trauma and unconscious beliefs waiting to be processed and integrated. It is especially tempting at this stage to bypass the intense emotions and force ourselves to focus on only positive thoughts so we may attract the desirable outcomes into our lives.

Contrary to how rushed we feel, this is the time to slow down, practice presence and allow the emotions to come up and come through. You will get to manifest soon, I promise. But the conscious mind must be in complete harmony with the unconscious mind for any kind of positive thinking or affirmations to work the way they are intended to work.

Without having released the unconscious and deep-seated limiting beliefs, the vibration of those beliefs is the invoice we are writing to the universe and we will receive what we put out. The practice of meditation can be helpful in assisting us in anchoring in the present moment.


Things may seem worse before they get better. Awakening has to do with deconstructing as well as reconstructing our relationships with the self and the world. Yes, it can be a chaotic process when all the bricks and stones that made up our perceived world suddenly collapse one after another. On some days it may be a few cracks on the wall whereas on the other days the entire roof suddenly comes down.

Change can be uncomfortable because it requires us to navigate through the unfamiliar. But it is the mind that labels it positive or negative. Without letting go of our judgement and resistance to the chaos, both acts only strengthen what we are trying to release. The chaos takes place because our old world was built on misaligned beliefs and an elusive perception of the self.

So in order to build a new world where the true self can expand and spread its wings, the old one must first crumble. Depending on how much we identified with our mind or ego, the ego may be putting up battles in surrendering its control before it can learn to take on a new role during this transformation, the role of being an instrument to carry out the divine will of the true self. 


There is no light without going through the dark night. Sooner or later, usually sooner, every single belief that held us hostage and made us unconscious will give away or gets reflected back to us by the most accurate mirror in the universe–life. As the entire world is taken down by our shifted vibration, we are standing before the naked truth how much power we gave away in playing the victim, the rescuer, the survivor, the follower, the abuser, the seductress, the ruler, etc.

There is neither anywhere to hide nor do we want to hide though it may seem to be the easier way out, except the only way out is in and through. It can be frightening to process the pain and violation of the misleading beliefs we lived by and of how much we compromised our own worth in order to be someone we are not so we could be accepted by others along with belief of low self-worth, which manifests in every area in life.

There are usually beliefs of lack and separation that come up simultaneously. We begin truly seeing the connection between our beliefs and the realities we have created for ourselves. In examining and processing our beliefs, the energy of fear is also being stirred as everything we have ever denied, repressed, projected, rationalized and disassociated from is now revealed as we go into the dark psyche within ourselves.

That part of the unconscious is the place where we store all the energetic data from past memories that we were too uncomfortable to face. And it is common to experience emotions, such as anger, shame or self-loathing, grief and guilt as these layers are being processed. The work done here is referred to as shadow work.

In order to emerge out of the shadow land, there must be an integration between the conscious and the unconscious. This is a continuous process and can be a rather long one with many different layers that every time when we feel we are done, another layer emerges. That involves the embracing rather than fighting what most frightens us.

I cannot emphasize enough how important it is to allow us to feel each emotion, not rush to feed ourselves with concepts such as love and light, all is well, I need to feel positive, acceptance and perfection, I am here to change the world, etc. These pieces will come later as a genuine byproduct of having done this work and integrated the disconnected parts within ourselves. But there is no use to force anything because it will backfire. It is the work we must do because there is no escape from the shadow.

Personally, I believe shadow work teaches us to completely embrace and love every part of ourselves without any pretense, a concept that most of us struggle with.


Take care of yourself before taking care of the world. Many of us, inspired by our own awakening, have also awakened our divine mission to spread the light and help others awaken. We become healers and teachers driven by the desire to share our experiences so others can liberate themselves from the old paradigm.

Allowing ourselves to becoming the vessels to inspire and service humanity is absolutely fulfilling and empowering. However, if we do choose to do so, it is also essential for us to continue our own awakening journeys for the simple reason that our services are always in an extension of our own energy or beliefs.

Every decision and action either stems from fear or love. If we desire to help others it is because we see them as broken and incapable, the desire comes from fear. If we long to take away others’ pain and feel responsible for altering their external conditions so they can stop suffering, we are still coming from fear. If we come from the place of control and we are seeking to be viewed as powerful or special, it is again fear-based.

In all these cases, we have more self-healing to do as it shows our attachment to the misaligned beliefs, which we built our old world on. It also demonstrates lack of trust in the divine intelligence that orchestrates our lives.

Without having first done the work to integrate light and dark, or good and bad within ourselves, which are duality concepts belonging only to the physical dimension, we can easily become triggered and frustrated when we experience others’ shadows.

This can lead to judgement, resentment, fear, lack of self-management or struggle withholding space for another ’cause our ego still wants to intervene. The minute we do so, we are no longer centered in our own vibration and can easily take on others’ energy, which can perpetuate the victimhood cycle and unconsciously magnify the energy of the collective pain body.

The more awakened we become, the more we are in a position to hold a sacred and non-judgmental space for others, in which role of an awakening teacher or leader like any role no longer identifies us. We do the work out of internal love and joy without being attached to a certain result or having to change someone and something. We see the perfection in all beings and conditions at this present moment and understand they are always evolving.

We most likely still choose the join causes that resonate with our energy so we can participate in conscious evolution and community-building for the planet. But the driving force behind our intention has shifted from fear to love, from wanting to force our beliefs and will unto others to empowering them while respecting their paths and choices. And we can apply ourselves to the tasks with more clarity and light.

This is a very subtle internal shift that may not result in any external change in the roles we decide to take on, we are still actively assisting others and applying ourselves fully. But we are doing so without the participation of our own ego, being a clear channel or spiritual alchemist, who does not disempower others by taking on their responsibilities requires self-mastery.

If this is where you are, ask yourself, “Why am I doing this work? Am I doing this in order to fix or escape from something? Do I see the world as a broken place? Is my joy or fulfillment dependent on it?” Chances are if you are completely honest with yourself, you don’t even need to ask to know whether it is from fear or love.”

So that was my education for the day….

And now I’m off to bed. Good night!


Feel wonderful! 



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